Real Dictionary

spite
phrase: If you do something in spite of yourself, you do it although you did not really intend to or expect to.

spite in American English
a mean or evil feeling toward another, characterized by the inclination to hurt, humiliate, annoy, frustrate, etc.; ill will; malice
to behave in a spiteful manner toward; vent one's spite upon by hurting, annoying, frustrating, etc.
noun: a malicious, usually petty, desire to harm, annoy, frustrate, or humiliate another person; bitter ill will; malice

spite in British English
noun: maliciousness involving the desire to harm another; venomous ill will